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Seems I've developed a twitch... » Wed, Jan 19th 2005 11:50 pm
My right eyelid has been twitching on and off all day, and it’s starting to bug me. I did what comes natural to anyone with a problem who has Internet access: I Googled it.
The results explained that it may be caused by a number of specific conditions, but the most frequently-mentioned was simply ‘stress’.
I’ve wondered what sort of things would start happening to me if I continued my obsession with perfection. While I’ve done my share of half-assing, most of the time I try to do things as best and efficiently as I can. Being somewhat of a developer, that translates to lots of rewriting of numerous routines hoping to uncover the shortest distance between the two points. It doesn’t help that I have trouble focusing on things and that my brain often seems incapable of dealing with simple problems (probably related to the focusing issue).
I’m extremely grateful to have found a job that doesn’t require my undivided attention for 8 hours straight for 5 consecutive days in every week. I had a job that required my attendance at specific times and my focus for the entirety of my allocated time. Pulling boxes off a shelf and rolling them out to their respective places in the 10 isles should be ridiculously simple for anyone, but not for me. I couldn’t get over how stupidly everything was packed onto the skids: cereal, paper towel, canned goods, more cereal, detergent—all in the same Jenga tower. My attempts to optimize were futile and only slowed me down. Not only that, but I knew that no matter how fast or hard I worked, there’d always be work. There was no incentive to get my work done quickly, other than avoiding embarrassing little ‘talks’ with my bosses.
Thankfully, I can sit down and work on a site knowing that in a few days, it’ll be done and it’ll run smoothly. Then (if I’m lucky) I can move onto another job which presents its own challenges and thus I have an endless supply of drive.
Were it not for Web design, I’d be failing at stocking shelves.
PS: I’ve a couple pictures on the way, but it’s late. I’ll try to post them tomorrow.
